Monday, January 26, 2009

strange dream #4

This is the best dream I've ever had since 2009 came. ^^

I was so scared at the first part because someone is following me, trying to kill me. It could've been my mother or the terror teacher I had in PE. LOL
they really scarred me for life. Here I was running on dark alley sorrounded by churches. A few moments of running and escaping from wretched aims of knives and bullets(what the hell did i watch before going to bed? haha), i found myself in a classroom. quite different from where we used to live when we were in fourth year high school but same old faces. ^^ I feel comfortamble quite a bit, but I see visions of them still following me. the weird thing was, I asked my bestfriend to hug me. LOL. ^^ at first I asked him about his girlfriend "do you have a girlfriend right now?" and he thought for a while and said none. then I told him "can i hug you?" (lmao I kinda had a crush on this guy in reality) and he said sure. (he always says sure to me. even if he cant come, he'll say sure i'll come but couldnt make it in the end.jeez what a real bastard.) And before he could say anything, I grabbed his arms very gently and wrapped my arms on it. ^^ That was my only intention, but what he did next, he brushed my hair off my face and wrapped his arms around me as well. That was really sweet and warm I could Just die there. LOL. It was a very intimate hug. ^^ It used to happen before(reality) but the intimate part like it was a true love, I guess wont happen. I and only you will know this. I'm not planning on telling him anything. He's the type of guy who changes girlfriend every now and then, was a real chick boy and has a lot of bestfriends other than me. I must be just 50%close to him compared to others. We'd best be that way. friends and my menthor(He's a fucking guitar/violin/piano genius) And I know he's inlove with other girls, I can tell how crazy he was about that girl he's telling me the other night.
I wasnt hurt though, I feel kinda sorry for the girl cause she is just going to be dumped in the end by this maniac after getting her and getting laid. *sigh* A true blue nympho just like me.

Monday, January 12, 2009

strange dream #3

my new strange dream was sick and freakin scary. Its about my niece. See, she has no family except us (in real life ok?) Her mom (my half sister) was dead and she doesnt know his dad but i bet he's a lost cause too. So, in my dream she kinda has this depression about being alone. We never become friends or talk about those things in the family so she has no choice but to keep all that feelings inside her. One night that was, I saw her crying in our room, fuck she was so scary I swear to God she looks like this >>

and She talks to herself (she does that in reality), saying things like I have no reason to live, so let me just follow my mother. Saying that over and over again. She said she's gonna kill herself but remain alive. I was confused and jokingly asked how she gonna do that. And then, she took out a knife and stabbed her head. Man, that freaked me out because fromt then on she acted like a zombie. LOL. And then next thing I found myself in a point of depression too and following her suicidal advice, I took out a Syringe and stuck it in my eyes. x| and let the needle sink in till it reaches my brain.











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01. Im one of the most BORING person I know.

02. I hate humans.
03. I am a total hermit that never goes out the house.

04. I am a very Lazy person.

05. I like being a kid and I do not anticipate growing up, getting a job, getting life. lol.

06. I'm pretty much the outcast of the group. yeah Social Anxiety Disorder.

07. Im also Paranoid, Schyzotypal and and bi-polar so please bear with me.

08. Math is the wicked antagonist to my school life.

09. Sports and I are not very good together.

10. Im a dork at heart. You probably notice that when we talk.

11. I get depressed way too easy.

12. I like dark misty rainy days.

13. Im a loner. Its just something that relaxes me. i couldn't care less if you think its loser thing.

14. I keep useless things for recycling purposes until my mom throws them out.

15. I have an army of pik-nik cans at home.

16. I forget too easily. Short-term Memory Loss D:

17. Seventeen is my favorite number.

18. My thought of afterlife is, Reincarnation.

19. I dont usually enjoy chatting.

20. Gays turn me on. I just wish they like me.

21. Im a total ice cream whore. ^^

22. I have this attraction to crazy reh-tar-ded people.

23. I probably have the carpal tunnel syndrome already.

24. I tend to skin my lips off all the time. lol.

25. I am trying hard to be a Vegan.

26. I dont like the taste of some Japanese food to be honest.

27. I like the taste of Blood however. Haematodispia

28. NEVER trust me with cooking cuz everytime i cook i turn everything into charcoal. lmao.

29. There's something magical between Tim B. and Johnny D. =)

30. Avenged Sevenfold is the best kickass band ever.

31. Im accused to be vicious and vain solely because of too much staring at the mirror.xP

32. But im not the selfish type of vain. Im probably gonna die saving someone's life someday.

33. I am indecisive. i took hours to decide which one to buy.

34. Being friends with me means honesty and that you'll receive a real lot of frankness and it could be a bit bitchy but trust me its for your good. =)

35. I am *very sorry* for being a total cheapskate.

36. I always try to make people happy but I never seem to help and only makes things worse instead.

37. Im a horrible explainer.

38. I am too lazy to even eat so I only eat twice a day.

39. Our House is a zoo, mental hospital and hunted house. =)

40. I like hopeless romantic people alot.

41. I wear 275 graded lens.

42. Everyone thinks I don't care but I do.. Im just good at showing like I don't.

43. I have tons of books at home that i forgot to return to someone. LOL XD

44. Im only unfriendly because Im afraid.

45. I like quiet people who always have little things to say and stutter it.

47. I am a fan of Yaoi (gay love stories)

48. Everyone thinks im a vampire.

49. Ask them why.

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